It felt like I am in a large hole falling downwards just like a terrible nightmare! All these negative thoughts pops in my head & I can't get rid of them. With Jian I was always so positive & healthy. But this time around I can barely go through the day without a nervous breakdown. I know it's the hormones & the surroundings but I can't help asking myself " Am I to blame for all these going wrong around me?" I always believe in karma. But I don't easily hurt somebody. So why is that everybody keeps forgetting that I am pregnant & expects me to be the responsible one! Talking jebarish I know....but it felt so nice to finally let it go.