I don't know what happens to us when we grow up. As kids we are so care free but as we grow old everything seems so out of order. Jian has grown out of her vomiting phase (GERD) but still whenever she makes a sound in her sleep both  Kamal & I jump out of the bed. We still panic when something gets stuck in her throat while she is eating!! She is such a big girl now but ( yes there is always a but ) I still treat her like a little girl. May be I just can't accept the fact that I have to love some one else as much as I have loved her!